we were all set to go on holiday …packing up car, its been raining heavily so i was taking clothes to laundromat to dry..
then it all turned to shit.
kids sprayed sun tan lotion over everything..
they got a slap on the hand for that.. which made them bawl…
i decided ill take them with me, T is shouting out obscenities.. (gosh hes annoying sometiems)
i put everything in car.. turn the ignition.. and my whole life crumbled….
that bloody battery was flat (A>G>A>I>N!!!).. to give you a bit of history on it.. that battery goes flat if you leave the door open for longer than a minute.. it is so bloody temperamental.
i go and buy a new one. T goes and puts it in my car.. i said nO my car is fine, put it in the family car..nah he reckons..this argument is finally been put to an end.. the battery is officially dead beyond repair.
by now my temper has reached boiling…i get in my car with the choice battery…take clothes to laundro.. next door was a dairy..
i sat there and contemplated buying me some smokes…and you know what came to mind? that i didnt want to upset my blog.. i didnt want to come back and say i let this stupid moment in my life destroy my smokefree status.. im stronger than that..
although right now im thinking.. what would you all know.. if i had gone and bought a packet.. you wouldnt know if i had i just wouldnt tell you.. and it would fall right off your shoulders cos at the end of the day it doesnt matter to you lot… it only matters to me..
so what did i do?…
i went in and bought a fizzy and a mince pie..lol.. i thought well if i munch on this and sip my fizzy.. then by the time im done with that i wouldve forgotten about my need for a smoke.
which it did. i also walked past some smokers and goawd it smelled foul.. so if it smells that way and i know its bad.. why why why why why why do i want a smoke so bad?…
the milktray chocolates have finally been demolished.. my kids found my stash this morning and both ran out of my room with about 5 chocs each under their tops..lol…bless em..
hate that im addicted…