IM READY TO TRY AGAIN…
its taken me two weeks to jump back on the wagon.
I think i am going to go seek help…cold turkey doesnt seem to be working for me this time around..
guess i need sum gum. I have a prescription in my bag so Ill go to pharmacy today and get some stuff.
hopefully that will work.
I’ve been out of town for a few weeks, hence why i havent returned to my beloved blog..
but i return with sad news..:(
I failed.. i failed miserably!..
i had such a hard new years that come jan 1 all i could do is rush to the dairy to buy me a packet.. and i smoked n smoked n smoked til the sickness went away.. not im chaining it again:(
so since jan 1 i am on to my third packet..
T isnt happy with me.. he doesnt yell at me but you can tell he’s dissapointed.. and im dissapointed too…
im going back to work on monday away for the week.
I am going to start again monday morning…and hope for the best. 
5 days on, i got totally stressed.. and yes i went and bought a packet of smokes..
i lit my smoke…took one puff and almost gagged on it – it was so freaking gross…
yeah that’s the spirit…keep thinking its gross i knew i just wasted money there but im going to make my money back… im going to sell that packet of smokes.. let’s see how i go..lol.
LOL they were sold in minutes…
Im sonz.. im a dickhead..
I have been smokefree for 5 days but took a stupid puff of a smoke now i feel sick…
I have saved 66.00 to date. Minus the $21.50 i bought that packet for.. adding $15 to what i sold that packt for leaves me with a grand total of…(gets calculator out.. thats some serious counting).59.50..!